Call Me Crazy

So people's reactions to my surgeries haven't been very positive. I think I look beautiful, and with more surgeries I will only get better looking, but when I saw my mom after my 10 surgeries, she was really upset. As I've read in magazines, some people claim that I have Body Dismorphic Disorder or that I am addicted to plastic surgery, but I just think they are jealous. I cannot wait to go larger with my breasts, but I will admit they do cause some problems. Like I told US Magazine, jogging is out of the question for me because of my large breasts, and since I am so small framed, my body has become very fragile. I am weird about hugging people now, because i don't want to damage anything. I don't care what other people say, I know what beautiful is and I will do anything to achieve it!

I'm a Barbie Girl

I know a lot of you might call me crazy, but I had 10 plastic surgeries done in ONE DAY! I had wanted to get all of this done for years now, and i am happy with the results. I do regret not going bigger with my breast implants though. I honestly dream to look like Barbie one day. I still am not up to the standards of what is beautiful and it is frustrating when I spend all this money and still have tons of flaws, but with more surgeries I will achieve my perfect body.

Spencer, music, and more surgeries..

I have recently gotten my music career going and can't wait to make it big. I think that my appearance is holding me back though. I feel like if I had larger breasts then I would sell more albums. I am planning on getting more surgeries, so I might finally be satisfied with my body. Also, I have met a new guy! His name is Spencer Pratt!! He is so smart and sexy and he is helping me with my career! We are both in the spotlight a lot, and we both love the attention! I am hoping my album will sell a lot of copies so I can finance my surgeries!! It is VERY expensive!

The New Me!

I finally got my plastic surgery! I feel a lot more beautiful now, but I am still not satisfied. I still want bigger breasts and still have MANY flaws. My nose looks ok, but I would rather it be a bit smaller. Maybe I'll opt for more surgery in the future, but for now this is better than nothing. I can't believe how ugly I was before!! I am a lot more confident now and this boost should help me in my career and love life! :)

School = Not for me

I decided that I don't want to go to school anymore, I landed an awesome job at Bolthouse Productions where I hope to move up in the company and become an event planner. I feel that if I get plastic surgery then I will have a better chance at getting my dream position. I have found a doctor and plan to receive a breast augmentation and a nose job. Maybe then I will fit in here in California more and have more self-confidence. Overall school wasn't challenging for me, and I know that this is my calling. I can't wait to start my career with Bolthouse!!!

Living in "The Hills"

LC and I decided to transfer from The Academy of Art University to the Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising. We ended up getting an apartment together! She was previously on the show Laguna Beach: The Real Orange County and they are giving her her own spin-off and they are naming it The Hills. I was invited to star in it with her and I am super excited to be on TV!!! Hopefully this will make me a star, or at least get me enough money to get some plastic surgery which I have been considering lately.. all my friends and family tell me I am beautiful the way I am but I don't believe them. When I look in the mirror I see so many flaws and wish I could be as beautiful as my friends. Who knows, but I am looking into surgery. But the show should be a lot of fun and I can't wait to see myself on TV!! :)

Orientation

I went to orientation at school today and things went great!! I ended up making a really good friend named Lauren Conrad, but she mostly goes by LC. We really hit it off and have a lot in common. She is so beautiful and I'm so happy she doesn't judge me on how I look. Hopefully this friendship will grow!! So far, so good!

Making Changes

High school is almost out and graduation is around the corner, and as soon as I get my diploma I am leaving Colorado and starting college in San Fransisco!!! I cannot wait to be in California! I will be attending The Academy of Art University and am very excited to make this transition in my life. But I am worried that I won't be as beautiful as those California girls. I mean I consider myself an ugly duckling and I know I won't be able to compare to those girls that have grown up in California all their lives. I just want to fit in and make lots of friends, hopefully they will accept me!